Thursday, April 14, 2011

I'm Fat

I wouldn't be surprised if I stepped on the scale and was heavier than ever! I have been eating candy, cookies, chips, and junk in great volume in addition to no water and big meals. Ughh. Why don't I have self control!? I'm super nervous and stressed about my talk and everything I have to do... :(

I will jump back on the wagon soon! (I hope).

Monday, April 11, 2011

I gained

And you know what? I don't care! I have been really busy and I just hit a slump where I've been emotionally eating. I don't have time to count every calorie at the moment, nor do I want to. I have a lot going on and eating 5 donut holes, 3 brownies, plus other junk at Amber's the other night just made me feel good! I will gain my motivation sometime, but probably not this week, with a church lesson AND a talk to prepare.

I will be more mindful of what I eat and try to limit the junk food, but that's the extent of it. Anyway, off to do my miles long to do list!

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Please Read This

http://blog.cjanerun.com/2011/04/janna-dean-weight-doesnt-matter.html

This article is full of truths that I really needed to hear. It would be easy for me to read an article like this and say "See!? I don't need to be putting tons of effort into dieting." I appreciate the truths in this article and it has inspired me to focus less on the weight loss aspects of my goal and more on the health aspects. So I will continue dieting (having an allotted amount of calories causes me to spend those precious calories on things that will fill me up and keep me full. In other words, I eat less crap.) This article helped me realize how important exercising is, even if I loathe it, I will strive to do it regularly. And as always, more water!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Six Days of Celebration

Last week and part of this were spent celebrating my birthday... which meant crappy eating and little exercise. I need to change the way I celebrate and quit using food as a reward. I also need to drink WAY more water. My birthday is done and over with until next year, so no excuses for crappy eating. (At least until Easter, right?)

Anyway, in the beginning of the week I snuck in a few trips to the scale and had lost 1 pound, but by the end of the week, I had gained it back. So at my official weigh in I was exactly the same as before. I totally maintained. I wasn't overly disappointed because I expected it, but yeah... It's getting to the point where I am growing tired of shopping for and preparing healthy food--this is the point where I stop trying usually. But not this time- I have been seriously people watching lately and I want to look like the healthy, thinner ones not the oompa loompas. Shallow, but true.

Anyway, I have LOTS to do this week so this will be a test of stick-to-it-tive-ness I guess.

PS- Devonn beat me AGAIN. Sigh.

PPS- I went to the Milan institute to get a spa pedicure... it was LOVELY and only $18 for like an hours worth of bliss.