Out To Lunch

Amber Cola took me out to lunch for my early birthday present. I love Amber so much, she is such a sweet friend and a terrific example of fitness!! Homegirl is hot and totally unwavering when it comes to exercise. But anyway, I ordered a chili verde burrito with rice and refried beans. Plus I had chips and salsa. I didn't eat dinner because I knew it put me at my calorie limit. Devonn might get me a 6-inch Subway sandwich on his way home but if not, I'll eat some strawberries and call it done. I'm not hungry either which is awesome. I know I should be consuming pretty level amounts of food at regular intervals to keep my metabolism stable but whatever. I am so into not going above my calories that it's becoming kind of an obsession. I keep having to remind myself that I'm celebrating and that it's okay.

I think I have lost 1 pound so far. I really hope I can lose another one!! My birthday is on Saturday and we're going to my parents for dinner so I'm not sure. I'll just keep on working out... even if it's 30 measly minutes on the stationary bike. I need to make sure I actually eat the 1200 calories too. And I need to drink way more water!! I know that it is the absolute key to weight loss success, it's just hard to train yourself to drink so much when you're used to drinking like 1 cup.

While on the bike today, it appeared as though I've lost a little in my thighs. While in the shower, it appeared as though I lost some from my boobs. I have not lost any from my stomach. It's always the first to appear and the last to go. It's all good though. Wish me luck hitting my 2 lbs this week?

One last thing, I think I'm over my sugar addiction! (I could easily fall into it though) I've been surrounded by it quite a few times lately and I can totally refrain. Today I ate three of the hershey's kisses Amber gave me and that's it... only three! Before, I would have eaten the entire bag.

Oh and also, does anyone know the actual effectiveness of vitamin b6 at boosting metabolism? I took half of one when I was pregnant for a couple months to quell the extreme barfiness and I was pretty hot. I know that the majority of that was because I was eating well and too sick to eat crappy but I can't help but wonder. I also question whether the b6, which supposedly can lead to the expression of certain genes, is what caused the seizure gene to express itself in Lexi. I am totally wracked with guilt. But that's another story.

A New Week

I wasn't thrilled with my loss last week but it was a loss. I'm grateful I didn't remain the same, or worse, increase. I was also on my period and am REALLY hoping that caused the number on the scale to be bigger. I didn't sleep much last night but I got on the stationary bike and did a pretty intense (for me) 30-minute ride anyway in the morning. It was LOVELY! I had to force myself to finish the last few minutes (I'm a weeny). But afterward I felt so great.

Some of my little goals this week: increase my water consumption, meet my calorie goal, keep the diet pepsi's at 2/day. I would also like to exercise at least a few more days this week. Also on the schedule for the week: clean the apartment top to bottom (takes FOREVER with Lexi) and finish heaps of my Math homework. I suppose I should try to get to bed earlier too.

Devonn said I can buy the game Rift and play it with him for his weekly prize (since he did beat me). I might, but I'll probably still give him a nice massage. Anyway, off to bed I go.

Cue Ominous Music?

Weigh in is tomorrow. I did start my period. My pants feel too tight. I didn't exercise much. I ate a bit of crappy stuff and probably went over my calories a couple times. I haven't been good about logging my meals lately but I am mindful of what I've been consuming. The last time I checked, I was down 1.5 lbs- I think I'm back up though. A 2 lb loss would make me happy (although Devonn lost much more I think). I need to shower but I worry that my skin will absorb and hold enough water to make me heavier, not to mention my hair... wacky, huh?

Since this blog is private and it's about my health, I feel comfortable sharing too much. I haven't been able to use tampons in years. They do not fit comfortably and when they do, the blood just goes around them or something. I'll totally fill a pad and pull out a tampon to discover that it's barely used. I've tried every different brand with similar results- sometimes they just retain a weird shape even though they're supposed to fan out to fit your body. They worked when I was a teenager (sneaking them from my mom because she was WACKY and never let me use them). I think they stopped working after I had James or Andrew. I tried "Instead" today, a disposable cup type of product. Supposedly it's a wonder product for women with similar issues to mine. Well, it didn't work. I cannot get it to insert fully and rest on top of my pubic bone. It's supposed to kind of suction to your cervix... it didn't. I'm bummed because even with the best pads, I fill one every hour for several days during my period. That's a WHOLE LOT of running to the bathroom. I'm almost home bound during those days. So anyone, (ie, Sarah, the only regular reader) have any suggestions? I'm probably going to talk to the nurse practitioner when I go in for my annual (someday). But who knows.

Also, I have had the crappiest skin ever lately. I don't know what is going on. It's been this way for a few months. Did my pregnancy with Lexi forever alter my hormones so I'll just have ugly skin? There's a slight possibility of it being my cholesterol meds but it doesn't really seem feasible.

Okay enough whining and complaining! I need to go prepare for Sunday (sadly, not my favorite thing to do).

Reason To Be Nervous This Time

I have been under my calories this week, I have not been exercising because we've been trying to get the house cleaned up for our annual re-certification inspection and really because every time Lexi is awake, she is grumpy and in need of entertainment. Her naps don't last longer than maybe 30-45 minutes (because she sleeps so well at night) so I generally shower or straighten up during those times. Plus we've been busy with other stuff.

The calories alone should have me losing, but it doesn't seem to be the case. I've been weighing myself in the mornings and I'm only down 0.4 lbs and it's already Thursday... sigh. I was supposed to start my period yesterday and I didn't so any day now... I am really hoping that's why. It could be the whole starvation mode junk because I sometimes have trouble hitting 1200 calories or it could be that I totally don't drink water. Devonn still wants to compete because he knows that eventually he'll win... this might be the week. If so, it will make me grouchy because I'm actually trying while he quit logging in to count his calories, doesn't exercise much, and eats way more... men!

Well, wish me luck! I paid in full for the rafting trip and I really don't want to be a total cow when I go.

Week 2 Weigh-In: Success!

We weighed in yesterday morning. I lost 3.8 pounds during the week! In the two weeks since our "lifestyle change," I have lost 9 pounds; 46 more to go! 9 seems like such a tiny number in comparison to the 46 I have left. I have these 8 lb weights though, and it's fun to pick one up and think that I am no longer carrying that around.

For those wondering, I beat Devonn again but I'm not sure we're going to compete much anymore... we'll see. It has been hard finding time for my rewards. Plus, Devonn has been sick and he's usually busy. The competition/rewards system was my idea and he just kind of went along with it, I don't think he was ever really into it. Although, if he were winning I think he would be super into it.

Okay, I'm exhausted!!! Was up sticking the pacifier in the baby's mouth every couple hours...

So Nervous!!

I am so nervous that I won't lose weight this week or that it will be minuscule. And then I will question whether it's because I haven't been eating enough calories each day (working hard at that one)--according to hundred's of successful people in the forums at myfitnesspal, when they initially plateaued, they began eating all of their 1200 calories plus half of their calories earned through exercise and they never plateaued again. I will also question whether it could be my period is lurking around the corner. A funny thing about my period, I'm 2-3 lbs heavier when I'm PMSing and when I'm menstruating but the day before my period starts I tend to be a couple pounds lighter than my actual weight. If I happen to weigh in that day, it would kind of suck because then the following week when I haven't lost any I would be discouraged.

I do realize that I'm too obsessed with a number on the scale. The bottom line is that I've been feeling pretty good and that's nice. This morning, I was SO exhausted but I decided to just exercise (I did a 10-minute workout on the cable) and then I wasn't tired anymore. I did so great with my calories and exercising (I also cleaned quite a bit) that I was able to eat a John's Burger salad (with the ranch and cheese)...yeah baby! From my estimation, the salad is about 1005 calories.

I'm also really going to cut down on the diet soda. I'm working towards either only having one a day (a can). Or only having one when we go out.

The website My Body Gallery is pretty great but it's kind of funny because supposedly people my weight and size wear a size 18 pants but I'm wearing a 22. I do have a BIG stomach though, so that could be why.

Okay, I need to get to bed earlier tonight!

PS- To Sarah, thanks for the soda causing water retention tip! I can drink one a bit later than 4pm the previous day, but not much later. I guess I never gave it any thought. But now that I know, it makes my weigh-ins a bit happier.

My Motivation

Devonn and I haven't done so hot with setting up any incremental rewards, we'll need to do that before too long so I can stay motivated. One fun thing that I might do, is a rafting trip. It's with ladies that I only know of really so I'm trying to convince other friends to come with me it's kind of expensive is the only problem. It's on June 29th. Sarah? April? wanna come?? I know you might be moving Sarah and I know you're like me when it comes to spending money on yourself, but still maybe it can be your motivator too... I sent you the info on FB, Sarah.

Anyway, if I can keep up with a 2lb weight loss each week, by the time the rafting trip rolls around, I'll be 30 lbs lighter! That would make me around 179. Only 20lbs away from my initial goal weight! I plan on swimming come beginning of June too (assuming it will be hot enough) so I hope to have a bit of a tan by then. But anyway, yay!

That's all for now. Once I'm over the initial excitement of eating better, I'll probably post less. Or maybe not, maybe I'll post every time I have a craving and then you'll all stop reading, heh.